LONELY NIGHTS - Well today is the start of new things. Laura has got a night job at morrisons, working from 5-9 tuesday through friday. Im dead proud for her for doing it, As she hasnt worked in 4 years. I know its going to be hard for her to be away from the kids, but I think it will do her wonders. Im also scared for her. I like to feel I protect my family, but she is away from me.... how can i do that. Im scared for me too. The evenings are laura and mine time !? ( that doesnt sound right ). i cant remember the last time we were away from each other.....and yes i know, you shouldnt spend every waking second together but.... I'm alittle scared for the children too. the evening are so set that the kids know that mommy and daddy do tea, then mommy and daddy do bath times, then mommy and daddy do bed time together. Im hoping that it doesnt have an effect on the children. But i must say tonight they were great. Maybe I'm just being stupid, but this is how i feel.

STRANGE DAYS - I've done this in the wrong order, but nevermind. I'm getting the feeling that I'm being used at work. I had a great office job, but over the last couple of I've felt like " oh I cant be arsed to do that I'll pass it on it stu".. Which i foolishly do. But the one thing that is REALLY p##sing me off at the mo is the other shifts. I work from 6am till 4 monday throgh thursday. but one I'm not there someone else does my job. But every morning when I come into work there is always a problem. I end up spending more time sorting out the problems than i do my own job. I get phone calls from people saying "why wasnt this done?" or "I asked for this to be here at 8pm why wasnt it here? " . Dont these people think hang on stu isnt here at 8 how would he know.. get this its 8:30 now, and i have been phoned four times since I've left work,  (1) to say has my delievery come in yet? (2) to tell me that he lost some paperwork but he found it !!!  (3) to ask where the paper is.... and then (4) how do i work the fax machine!!! all i wont to say is I'M A CELEB GET ME OUS OF HERE!!!!!

Well its almost time from laura to come home. thank you for your company and hope I didnt go on too much. Promise to have something good to write about tomorrow.