Last night i felt something I've not felt for a long time.... My passion for music! and its all thats to Top of the Pops!!! (I know). I've always loved music following my bands , buying there music, etc. But i'm ashamed to say this that its all just been noise to me . But last night i saw The Tears.. and out of all the noise came a voice from the past. A voice thats for over 10 years got me through some of tough times. it was the voice of Brett Anderson. Now many of you will be saying "who?". Which is ok....ish. He was the lead singer of suede for some 14 years. Brillant band, god knows how many times i saw them. It was like i had been sent back in time to when I was a long haired, stick of a man. Sitting in my room, playing air guitar and feeling like the world was against me cos I wanted just to fit in, Too many this is present day ( Don't worry it all sorts itself out in the end). But as i looked closer to the tv i could see what looked like genius known as bernie butler on guitar.... Why yes it was. OH MY GOD! The two of them together again. For all of you that dont know what I'm talking about bernie was in Suede when they first came out, BUt left the band after they recorded "stay together", should have know that was a sign for the end. i knew they were talking about doing something together again and where on Radio 6 only last month, But releasing song...well. What I'm trying to get at is that in the past I would have known. i would have been the one spreading the word, But instead I find out on TOTP of all places!!!!!!!

So when did I lose it. When I left virgin?, left home, had kids? stopped going down the pub? its like that question where do all the odd socks go? Maybe I will never know, But its come back to me and I'm not going to let in go.  Music used to flow through my vain like my lifeline.... I'm starting to get that feeling back... IT FEELS WONDERFUL!